the Jude Cole lifestyle
Dr. Jane Fitch:
"Together we can find and use that passion you have somewhere deep down inside to create a life of joy, peace and fulfillment. We all have blocks of some kind. And usually, they are just stuff we have made up – fantasy that exists only in our mind. Well, it is time to face the music (so to speak!). To remove those blocks, and express who and what we really are."*It’s all out here *points around* see, my blog. And about the blocks (no readers, that’s another kinda blog…uh, block) Btw, in my case, my ma is my block. Don’t get me wrong, I love her, but she also kind of prevents me from doing certain things I want to do. Or is that just fantasy?.
*How can I get rid of ma? ………….OUCH! Even I understand that was wrong.
"Do you know what your expression and mission is?"*points around some more* BLOG! Oh, my mission, I must admit, that’s a tough one..
"Get ready, get a notebook, and open yourself up.."*sigh* Blog! Don’t you see the blog, woman!?
Frankly, here is my reason to have my own blog. I love writing, and I'm writing all the time anyway. Also, I don't mind getting some attention, though not many are reading this. This is my passion, and my way to express myself.
My mission: that's another story. I think my mission is finding some fulfilment in my life, and when I'm done fulfilling my own life, I can go fulfilling someone else's life. I feel my mission is getting to Heaven's door alive, or at least in one piece. Hm, no I think I'm going to pick another mission. Maybe something like getting people to think about stuff, or stirring something in the mind instead of in the heart. Or maybe in both....
No, I don't have anything against the dear Dr. I'm just so tired of all these mind-hunters. I've been talking to people so many times, I've been trying to organize my life so many times. No-one ever got me that far, nor that happy. I'm stil seeking, and I'm getting there slowly. I think I kind of found my way around here. I'm down to earth, standing firmly with both feet to the ground. I suppose I can say 'I'm standing firmly down to earth on both feet'.
Humble-bee me another one, and I'll fly away.
We'll think of your proposal, Dr. Jane Fitch.
Quote Source: JCafe - E-zine
Let Me Breath
Okay, yeah, maybe I am a little over-excited, and maybe I'm even a little obsessed. But I love him, I REALLY do. If I could, I'd marry him! I love everything he likes. I'll do everything he's too tired or too busy for. Jude....
Gawd Crist!!!!!!!! (note the mis-spellings) Is he a saint or something? I do love Jude's music, and he's a really nice guy over e-mail, but that's it.
I'm a member of the Jude Cole/Ironworks group (hence the link on your right side), and don't get me wrong; I really love these people. But tonight I got a bit of a lack of breath. The group's like village full of friends, family and people I know. And they also behave like that; like village people (don't you feel the urge to start singing the...) They go around, gossip around, lame around, and worship jude all around. I'm sorry, but I'm not the worshipping-kind-of-person.
And it's not just Jude, but everything and everyone who got to do with Jude (except for the regular fans) these people are all worshipped. I might be a emotional rollercoaster, and I might be a hopeless dreamer, but not even I lose track with reality this bad. What annoys me the most is, that we don't seem to be able to stop the gossiping. No, that's a lie, I love the gossiping.
But Please! Stop the worshipping around?
Okay, maybe I'm overdoing it again. I think I might be the worst worshipper and gossiper of them all. I need to think about that one, while I dream I'm flirting with Jude, and he falls for me, like a brick....
Oh, Lifehouse! Yeah, that was the reason I wrote this piece, or peace....
Peace, anyway!
Daily update
Today I found a nice quote:
I liked it anyway.
Now, my internship:
Now I've got the right persons, and the wrong organisations in the wrong Business Units. And the man who told me yesterday to come to him today, was absent today. So, there I stood looking like a fool in front of a dark, empty office.
And for anyone interested:
The Story Behind "Sheila (Don't Remember)"
“Back in the eighties, when I was struggling to get a record deal, and had a bit of a party problem. I had the typical, ninety-eighties, drunken, cocaine, one-night-stand. And I had the opportunity about two years later; to be seated at a table at a restaurant, were some of my friends, who were joined by other friends. My party of friends, and this other party of friends, had a girl with them that I had been with, a couple of years ago. We spent the entire evening talking; she had no idea who I was, not a clue. I didn’t bother to tell her, it was a little too humiliating, but I wrote a song about it.”
- Jude Cole
Source: "Live in Chicago - 1995"
Cereal pancakes won't get you far in life
My life is exciting as that pancake glued to my kitchen ceiling. I’m staring at it while I drink me a mug of milk that gets me stom’aches’. I’m eating my cereal slowly, without the milk. I’m thinking of what I’m supposed to do today. I’m thinking of what I was supposed to do yesterday. I figure it’s going to be busy today.
Sometimes I believe I’m fooling myself. When I was a young kid, I always believed I would be one of those people who fall in love with someone at a young age, marry that man and have children, and that would be it. It sounded safe and assuring; I’d be ok.
Now fast-forward 15 years. I am 24 now. I’m almost finishing studying, I’m f*$&*^$ up again, and nothing goes the way it should. I keep failing school exams, if I didn’t forget to sign in. And I keep falling behind the line instead of falling right there on my place in the line. Companies rushing on and I’m standing still. Oh shit, that’s no good, I’m getting behind.
That’s my life’s story, though. I was always last to come in. I’m slow, I know. And I’m lazy, yeah, I know, you don’t need to keep reminding me. I found out my wheel of life, to make it role more smoothly. Problem is I’ve got to work on it, to make it real round and rollin’. I need to push myself, but I’m lazy. And if my wheel is rolling, it rolls into the wrong direction.
Now, that wrong direction I was heading to.
I’m a dreamer. I’ve got it all figured out in my head, but who will ever believe me, if I never do anything with it? I need to push myself in order not to get behind. I need to find me interesting things to do, or exciting things. I need to go forward, not stand still. I’ve got to stop looking behind me, and I’ve got to stop standing still.
Okay, so here is my dream: I want to be more ambitious. I need to be more energetic. I have to come forward. I have to be everything that’s so NOT me. Can I leave that till tomorrow?
Okay, so where has that pancake gone?
Musical interests
Okay, here's another one:
It's not because I'm over-excited, it's because obviously things been happening in my life, even before I had this blog. And a lot of things have been happening, lately.
1. I started my internship, which is my final college assignment.
2. I kind of assisted with building a new site for the Jude Cole community, which triggered the excitement of an insider of the Jude Cole clan.
The former I've been going on about already, so I'll let that one go for a minute.
The latter I haven't said anything about yet, and this is actually the most exciting of the two. A few of us have been working, planning and scheming the information, the lay-out, and what we wanted to do with the site. The real excitement is gone, cause we did most of it. I'm pretty much waiting for the surprises to emerge.
That, and something I forgot. (Don't ever do editing, it takes the charm of real-life-messaging)
3. A lot of new music, and with this I take the chance to promote a few great artists:
a. Gavin DeGraw
b. Lifehouse
c. Rocco DeLuca (upcoming)
d. Racoon (Dutch band, but American sounding with a funny accent)
And some old music which is just great:
a. Jude Cole (see links; if my change-of-links will ever be accepted)
b. Del Amitri
Well, these are pretty much the subjects playing in the past, and being somehow important in my life. I'll shut up for today.
Not so common!
At the moment I’m sweating away at my internship. I’m doing a marketing research concerning the usability and attraction of the site of an organization and what customers think it. All went well, till I had to find background information about few of the selected organizations.
You might think it’s easiest to find the information on the Internet (and believe me, I’m a professional Internet Globe trotter, so...) You think the Internet huh? Well, most people do, just not the organizations. So, I suppose we can define ‘organizations’ as non-people. During this research I found myself incredibly often going: ‘WOW, that sucks!’ This search for organizational identities made me wanna punch the screen.
You think a bit of an organization has at least a bit of a site online. Na-Ah!!! WRONG! Some organizations seem to think it’s enough to have their profiles (written by others) on an organization-collection site.
Also, misunderstandings seem to be more common than business sites. Gettin the wrong information all the time. I need the face-to-customer face people, not the phone-to-customer people. Now I need to retalk, and re-mail to set things straight.
I suppose this is the fun of the business life.
Because I have some to say
First I thought, a blog is not for me. Having a blog seems self-pretentious. I'm not that way. Still, here I am blogging (or plotting) away, because I have some to say. Actually, I have a lot to say about a lot, and I have an opinion on even more. So, here I am, blogging away, because I write down everything anyway. Thought I could share it with the rest of the world as well, and it's good writing exersize.
Forgive me, I use the blog functionalities wrong; I'm still learning. Forgive me my random chit chatter now and in the future; I'll probably never learn. Before I get seriously comfortable around here, I go see where the bathroom is, and find out how to use this thing.
Whoever will read this; I'll get back to ya with more comprehensible information later. Laterz!
