Trying life

Cereal pancakes won't get you far in life

My life is exciting as that pancake glued to my kitchen ceiling. I’m staring at it while I drink me a mug of milk that gets me stom’aches’. I’m eating my cereal slowly, without the milk. I’m thinking of what I’m supposed to do today. I’m thinking of what I was supposed to do yesterday. I figure it’s going to be busy today.

Sometimes I believe I’m fooling myself. When I was a young kid, I always believed I would be one of those people who fall in love with someone at a young age, marry that man and have children, and that would be it. It sounded safe and assuring; I’d be ok.

Now fast-forward 15 years. I am 24 now. I’m almost finishing studying, I’m f*$&*^$ up again, and nothing goes the way it should. I keep failing school exams, if I didn’t forget to sign in. And I keep falling behind the line instead of falling right there on my place in the line. Companies rushing on and I’m standing still. Oh shit, that’s no good, I’m getting behind.

That’s my life’s story, though. I was always last to come in. I’m slow, I know. And I’m lazy, yeah, I know, you don’t need to keep reminding me. I found out my wheel of life, to make it role more smoothly. Problem is I’ve got to work on it, to make it real round and rollin’. I need to push myself, but I’m lazy. And if my wheel is rolling, it rolls into the wrong direction.

Now, that wrong direction I was heading to.

I’m a dreamer. I’ve got it all figured out in my head, but who will ever believe me, if I never do anything with it? I need to push myself in order not to get behind. I need to find me interesting things to do, or exciting things. I need to go forward, not stand still. I’ve got to stop looking behind me, and I’ve got to stop standing still.

Okay, so here is my dream: I want to be more ambitious. I need to be more energetic. I have to come forward. I have to be everything that’s so NOT me. Can I leave that till tomorrow?

Okay, so where has that pancake gone?

posted by Wiwik @ 6:11 AM